Isn’t it fucked up how I walk around trembling everyday because I feel so much anxiety? Most days I just hold my breath and hope I make it to the end of the day, and when the end of the day arrives, I’m so overwhelmed with everything I just bawl my eyes out for hours in bed.
I hate how much I rely on certain people just because I can’t do anything myself anymore. I hate even more how people don’t take anxiety seriously. My anxiety can last 4 minutes up to a whole week. That means that for a whole week I struggle so much emotionally and physically.
I feel like I need to keep people away because they can’t seem to understand whats going on, and I’m down to 3 people in my life and not a single one is related to me because they don’t understand either. What’s worse is that one of those three cause a lot of my anxiety, but if not around, it’s only worse.
I guess it’s true what they say; “You can run but you can’t hide.”
Managing Pessimism 