Recently I’ve been getting a lot of comments about my schools and how I manage studying while working and going to school late at night. My whole theory is that if you don’t want to do it, you probably won’t achieve it. I’m at a point in my life where I am desperately trying to get off this island and get away from all these bad memories. Though I will never deny this island has a lot of good memories as well. But my bad out weigh my good. I no longer refer to myself as motivated but as desperate. And desperation gets you far in this world. Desperation helps you survive.
My education is one thing I took for granted far too long and it’s time I get my act together and make my family proud. I believe that showing full capability and intelligence is the best thing you could do for yourself. If people wanted to achieve good grades they would make time to study, as I do. I sometimes wear myself out because I study in the early morning around 5AM, on my commute to work, before my shift starts, during lunch, on my commute to school and then when I get home from school as well. It may seem a lot, but It’s probably around 3 hours total. They are very short study periods because I don’t exactly have the time to study all day for hours on ends, but every little bit helps.
I feel there’s a little bit of pressure being best of my class last year for all of my subjects except spanish. I definitely have to be on top of my game, and keeping up with my classes has only been harder this year, as the quantity of exam material has doubled. But once more, that’s an excuse. I know I have the intelligence to pass my classes without any problems so I know I’ll do fine. Actually I’ll do much better than fine, I’ll do a spectacular job.
If people put in as much effort into studying as they do in procrastination, we would have a lot more Master’s degrees in this world. I recently realized there’s a frenzy about studying at the public library, I know because I followed that frenzy. You don’t study, you look at people and over abuse free wifi. But as soon as you invite someone to your house to study all of the sudden they can’t because they aren’t allowed to leave the house. It’s because of this that people are stuck in the same place for so long. When opportunities present themselves they pass them right by. Meanwhile it might be a life changing thing.
Some things have to be set aside when you are trying to reach a goal. And sometimes that means putting the things you love, like your phone, as a backup plan and putting the things you dislike, for example studying, as your first plan. I promise you, one day you will be at the top of your game and you will be so happy with the decisions you made. But this can only be achieved when you are making the right decisions for your future self, not your past self or present self.
Hoping you have a good time, Kamla.